Garv Melancholy

WHY ME  I am old now, So I should understand. They said I should— But why me? The cost of me— I paid it to you. So why me? A cry in my scream, Why me? My love was never reciprocated, My hopes long gone. I wish I was exceptional enough To accept that it’s me. Is this what being old means? To carry the weight of unanswered questions, To bear the burden of being ordinary, And wonder if you were ever enough? Maybe this is how it feels— When you grow old.

 THE LIE I LIVE You lied, all you do is lie, Why, may I ask, is telling lies all you do? I see an image of me, the man I desired to be. And again, I lie, to be the man I was destined to be. So one day, just that one day, I wake up and I am that lie, the lie I told you, when I cried. A lie so beautiful, it made me want to follow my destiny. So I lie once again, not to make you cry, but for hope, I lie. For love, I lie. For bond, I cry, so I lie.

 ONCE AGAIN The feeling I had when I saw you again— It had been years, Yet it felt like yesterday. Back then, the days were shorter, With you— So swift, yet so fulfilling. Now, all that's left is regret, As I long for the day we first met. I lost my breath once more, Once more, The hopelessness. Still, I wish I could turn back time— Back when life was kind to me, When the days felt lighter, And you were more than just a distant memory. A memory I shall hold Until I die, Or until I move on To make new ones. Yet, I wonder, Yet, I wish— I wish it was you.

 BEFORE IT FALLS I See Me  Shy ? Nah-- Let"s live a little I see me The real me. It took years, A journey I felt in every breath And now , I know-- I am whole Not out of fear But out of guilt I was freed I thought I was just a bystander A shadow in the crowd But now, I 've been given the role of lifetime So , I"ll live a little Feel a little Before it all falls down.